I've come to the conclusion that I'm not going to worry too much about this whole personality thing. I just don't fit in a box! Other people are going to have to accept that and hopefully accept me just the way I am! I'm going to try to be as genuine as I possibly can (without scaring people half to death) and if people want to judge me, go ahead, just don't talk to me about it and don't try to pretend you're my friend!
Personalities can change anyway, so no use in getting too into it. The only thing that is helpful about understanding someone's personality is just knowing how to relate to them better. So your friends just need to know that your a mix, and that is okay!
ReplyDeleteYeah! Like I said, the leader of CR here in Moscow wants to categorize me and when I behave outside of that box, he thinks I'm being insincere and that its out of unhealthiness and there may have been a time that was true, but honestly I don't even know how to be insincere without really concentrating on it and focusing on that for a specific purpose (like at church yesterday, when, as I put it to my friend Jeni, "I had my church face on.") cause I can't just go around crying all the time. That would make people so uncomfortable, which I felt like doing, because I felt so misunderstood and alone. I hated it!
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