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Tuesday, July 26, 2011
My Own Personal "Shack" Part 18
Wow, it's late, but I thought I'd check in with ya'll. I'm still here. There have been a lot of ups and downs and that's pretty much the story of my life, and I'm beginning to think I always will be on the verge of a breakdown in some way, shape, or form. Don't know when I will no longer suffer from severe depression and feeling like I'm not really worth anything. Not feeling that way this second, but that's cause I'm too tired. Good night!
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You should edit this post! Every time you speak/write the negative side or the despair that you feel, you are affirming it in your mind.
ReplyDeleteSure, you might not know when you will be free from depression, but GOD DOES!
You are NOT "on the verge" of another pit, you are SECURELY IN GOD'S HANDS.
You may FEEL like you are are not worth anything - but that is LIE!!! Jesus came here to save YOU. He paid his comfort, his freedom, all of his divine authority, and his LIFE for you. Almighty God set aside His entire kingdom to come here to be rejected, beaten, flogged, tortured, and killed - FOR YOU. That is how much you are worth. That is how much He LOVES YOU. No one has ever paid more for anything - EVER! You are the most valuable prize!! You are WORTH that much and that is the TRUTH because GOD declared it and did it.
So next time you want to write like that, take each feeling and compare it to the truth. Like this:
Wow, it's late, but I thought I'd check in with y'all. I'm still here. There have been a lot of ups and downs and that is to be expected during personal renovations. Sometimes I get discouraged, but I know God is working and He is in full control of me and everything that happens. I don't know when I will be healthy, but God does. Depression can be excruciating because I am in the middle of a fierce spiritual battle, but God says I am worth fighting for. Praise Jesus that I am not feeling unworthy this second, because He is comforting me and transforming my mind. Sometimes His work is more evident when I am tired, because I don't fight him as much. Good night!