My Awesome Husband

Josh went and got my yummy water that I love so much!!! Isn't he wonderful! Now, he's watching tv. He also finished cleaning the house for me. The kids started yesterday. It was all done when I got home from Celebrate Recovery!

Addiction Continued

It's a new day, and it's a beautiful one! No headache so far. We'll see how we do today! I'm going to my friend's house to get my water today. I can't wait to get it. It tastes so much better than even my filtered tap water!

My Not So Good Day

Ugh! My day went from bad to worse. The kids continued to make me want to, as Beth Moore, would say, "snatch them baldheaded." They destroyed my bedroom during a pillow fight. I'm still trying to find some of my books that got knocked all over the room. One in particular that's very important. It's for the step study that I'm c0-leading. It would be really bad if one of their fearless (can you say denial?) leaders showed up on Monday without their book. Yes, I frequently speak about myself in the third person. Get used to it. Anyway, they moved their rough housing into the kitchen after that and knocked down some dishes. At that point I sent them all into their rooms to CHILL OUT! (Can you believe they actually asked me later if they could have some coffee?!) I then let the two oldest go to TJ's Books, a used book store not far from our house. They love to go there and see what books they have that they might like and report back to me what they found. That's when I discovered the missing books. I called them on the cell phone I always send them with and ordered them home. I screamed at them on the phone. I'm sure they couldn't understand a word I said, really. At that point I had a headache, from going all day without soda. Then, Josh called and I told him what happened. He came home and gave them all daddy spankings. Those are much worse than mommy spankings just so you know. Then, they were ordered to clean the house, including doing dishes. They proceeded to do so. Later I got a phone call from my friend with the Kangen water. This was a good thing really. She told me that if I wasn't going to use the water could she buy back her containers that she had sold me. I told her I still wanted to try the water, I just couldn't until I got off the soda. She then, told me that she would try to help me with that. In fact, she told me that some people she knew who were on the water told her that after they'd drank the water for a while soda didn't taste as good to them anymore, so it helped them quit. Soda had never been an issue for her, so she'd had to ask some other people about it. So, she told me that she'd be at her house at a certain time that evening and if I could meet her there and bring my empty jugs, she could refill them for me. So, I got the directions to her house, got ready to go and headed out. She lives in an area I've never driven to before (been there but never driven there) and I'd never been to her house, obviously. I got lost, and couldn't find it, so I came back home. Called my husband and yelled at him, as if it's his fault, right. But I wanted him to help me and he was working as usual. He got her phone number from me and called her himself and set up a time to get the water tomorrow. So, we're getting it tomorrow. We fought more about his job and everything else. I'm just really cranky I guess, and I was feeling bad about pressuring him to take care of it for me. It seems my usual reaction to negative feelings these days is to get angry. When I couldn't find my friend's house, I yelled at the kids, blaming them for me not being able to find her house. If they hadn't been talking to me, asking me questions, wanting the radio turned up, etc. Ridiculous, I know. Those things didn't help, but I probably wouldn't have been able to find it anyway. It didn't help that other drivers were honking at me cause I was driving so slow, trying to find this place. Remember that the next time you're behind a slow driver, or one that seems confused. Maybe they are confused! Anyway, I eventually decided to go to Celebrate Recovery, which I'd previously decided not to do because of the kids behavior, but I'm glad I did. Everyone there is loving and accepting and it felt good just to be there with them.

The Mommies

Well, I only had one soda yesterday. We'll see if we can have none today. We'll see what we can do about that. I can already tell my kids are not going to be helpful. I've already had to break up a couple of fights. And now, I'm getting the "mommies" again. You all know what the "mommies" are if you have children. "Mommy he's doing such and such." "Mommy, she's doing such and such." That is happening a lot in my house this morning and we've only been up for about an hour!

Addiction

It seems I can't live a single day of my life without some sort of addiction. This one has been a constant in my life since I was in high school. I just didn't realize how addicted I was until I was given a new opportunity to improve my families health. It required me to make a committment though. I had to give it thirty days to start working. I had to quit drinking sodas and energy drinks and no bottled water or flavored water. It's called Kangen water. It's made with a special machine that separates out all of the acids so that it's more alkaline. This is a good thing. Our bodies are supposed to be more alkaline than acidic. But it doesn't work if I drink all that other stuff. I can drink coffee and tea and all that other stuff. I just need to use the Kangen water to mix it. Those of you who know me well, know what the problem is. People used to know that I was church when they heard a soda can open. That was then. Now I can get through church without a Pepsi, but apparently I can't go more than 2 1/2 days! It's ridiculous. In fact, I had just told some people that I make sure not to drink any soda for at least a day to be sure I'm not addicted. Well, I guess that's not enough. I'm going to have to try to quit yet again. We're talking migraine headache after 2 1/2 days of no soda. I talked to my husband before I head to Taco Bell for my fix. He told me, just think of the money you'll save if you don't go out for lunch. I told him, "Just think of the people I'll kill if I don't get a soda right now!" I know. Terrible. Why is it I'm always seriously addicted to something? My head was pounding so bad I literally couldn't think about anything else. I just barely kept moving. I couldn't do my work at home, cause I was just in so much pain! It was definitely withdrawals, mixed with the detoxification process the water sends you into. I was more miserable, physically, than ever before. Seriously, the flu feels better than this felt. I decided to quit drinking the water and try to wean myself off that soda before I try it again. Hopefully I'll be able to. I sure hope so, cause I really want to be healthy and have healthy kids.

Genesis 1:6-8

Genesis 1:6-8



And God said, "Let there be an expanse between the waters to separate water from water."So God made the expanse and separated the water under the expanse from the water above it. And it was so. God called the expanse "sky." And there was evening, and there was morning-the second day.



Okay, so this is the second day. Wow, it took me more than one day just to study what He did in one day! And I got to admit, this I'm having to read several times. I've read Genesis 1 many times, but I've never taken it apart and really look at the individual parts before now. I never thought about their behind "water separated from water." Maybe that's what He means by the earth being formless. Maybe it was entirely made of water. After all, water is pretty formless. So, then, maybe all the planets were water. So he separated them on day two by creating the sky. Look at the sky every once in a while today. Didn't he do a beautiful job?

Halloween with the Paparazzo's

The kids enjoyed their Halloween fun. We really didn't have a lot of money, so we used mostly what we already have at home. My kids love dress-up, so it wasn't hard. Jeremiah went as a Boy Scout, Angela went as the cutest cheerleader ever, and Chloe, the only person we bought a costume for, was the most adorable SuperGirl I have ever seen! She was just getting over a cold, but we managed to get her out for a while. We went trick-or-treating in a friend's neighborhood and then went to the Nazarene Church for some fun games, activities, and hot dogs and cider. Of course they also got candy and prizes there. Temporarily forgetting about Chloe's hay fever along with the cold she already was trying to get over, I sent her through the hay maze. I quickly remembered her hay fever when I heard a child hacking up a lung in the hay maze. Talk about feeling like the worst mom on the planet. We soon left at went to a couple of friends houses, before heading home to get her some medicine and off to bed. They had a good time anyway, and Chloe was soon feeling better and enjoying her candy. She still has the cough she's had all week and she and I stayed home from church this morning, but hopefully she'll be okay to go to school in the morning.