When I gave birth to my son I figured this was it. I was going to have a houseful of boys. You see the last baby girl born into my family was me, and me and my sister had no female cousins. They were all boys. At the time my son was born my sister had a boy as well, so I figured we were in for another generation of boys. You can not imagine my excitement when I found out that my second child would be a girl! My mother didn't even believe it when I told her. She said she was not buying anything pink until she saw this baby for herself. I went ahead an bought pink and was having a great time shopping for my soon-to-be little girl, but apparently I didn't completely believe it either, because as soon as she was born, even while still in pain from a horrible delivery, the first thing I said was, "Is it really a girl?" They kind of looked at me funny and assured me that yes, it's really a girl. We named her Angela Nicole, after a young woman who had a big influence in my life in Christ and Nicole was Josh's favorite girl name, so that became her middle name. We think they go beautifully together.
Soon after she was born it became very obvious that there was a problem. She wasn't breathing! They rushed her off to get her breathing an hook her up to oxygen. In my sick, unhealed mind at the time, I remember thinking to myself, "Wouldn't that be just like God, to give me a beautiful little girl, only to take her away from me before I have a chance to get to know her." Just goes to show how little I knew about how much God loves me. To make a long story short, she's a very healthy 10-year-old girl today and I adore her! And as if that were not enough, God saw fit to bless me with yet another little girl! This one was not planned and I was a little upset with God when I first found out I was pregnant, because the way I saw it I was already screwing up two children, why did He want to torture me by giving me another one to mess up. But, of course, she has been an unbelievable blessing. They are two very different girls and I plan to tell you more about "Me and My Girls" in the future.
Soon after she was born it became very obvious that there was a problem. She wasn't breathing! They rushed her off to get her breathing an hook her up to oxygen. In my sick, unhealed mind at the time, I remember thinking to myself, "Wouldn't that be just like God, to give me a beautiful little girl, only to take her away from me before I have a chance to get to know her." Just goes to show how little I knew about how much God loves me. To make a long story short, she's a very healthy 10-year-old girl today and I adore her! And as if that were not enough, God saw fit to bless me with yet another little girl! This one was not planned and I was a little upset with God when I first found out I was pregnant, because the way I saw it I was already screwing up two children, why did He want to torture me by giving me another one to mess up. But, of course, she has been an unbelievable blessing. They are two very different girls and I plan to tell you more about "Me and My Girls" in the future.
The first thing we did when Annabeth came forth into the world was look to see if she was really a girl! I still can't believe I have the blessing of a son and a daughter. It's amazing how they reflect God's glory in such different ways.
ReplyDeletewhy they heck did you have to make me tear up. so sweet
ReplyDeleteI think it is so cool how God gives us the children he needs us to have to help us on our journey. I'm so glad God gave someone girls!! You encouraged me tonight. Hugs! to you and Angela (and Chloe).
ReplyDeleteAnd, of course, you are that wonderful woman I named my first daughter after, Angela. I wish God had given you a daughter,too, but He doesn't make mistakes, so I'm sure He has his reasons! Given my lack of experience with girls, I didn't think I'd know how to raise daughters, but He's taught me along the way and It's a good thing, cause otherwise I'd be all alone. I'm a little nervous about the next stage in their development as you can imagine!
ReplyDelete@amanda, thanks for the comment. I was hoping you'd comment on my book segments though. That's okay. Maybe next time. @candy, sorry. I promise I'll do it again.
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