Thursday, March 26, 2009

depression

I've been really depressed this week. I know I haven't mentioned this before, but years ago I was diagnosed with Major Depressive Disorder and have had to take medications for years. Many people think that I shouldn't share that which has always bugged me, because to me if tells me that it's something I need to be ashamed of. I refuse to be ashamed of it. At least on most days. I've spent enough of my life being ashamed and believe me I have enough junk already that I should be ashamed of. I don't need to add things to the list that are not my fault.

Also, some people think that all antidepressants do is mask the real problems. Oh, I wish that were true. I don't think it would be possible to put me on enough medications to do that. It would be nice if nothing ever had to hurt, but I do feel things A LOT! Stuff hurts me just like it does anybody else. And without going into detail since this is a public blog and I wouldn't want just anybody to know the details of my life, I've had a really bad week.

3 comments:

  1. I'm sorry you have been depressed. I've been there, too. I don't think it should be something to be ashamed about, but I know it's hard- especially when people tell you that you shouldn't be depressed because you have Jesus. If only it were that simple, right?

    And you are right- antidepressants don't mask the problem. They just make it so you don't kill yourself or cry uncontrollably over the littlest things. ;)

    God bless!

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  3. I'll definitely check that out. Not right now though. I have something I need to take care of right now. Later 'kay? I promise.

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